Im not sure how 'famous' this blog will become. Im not even sure Im interested in fame. What I do know is this: It's a form of therapy that I've been using since the age of 5. Not blogging exactly, but writing in general. In my mother's attic she has boxes and boxes of my sisters' and my journals. We wrote down everything from the time we figured out how to form sentences. And recently I bought my own daughter her first journal. She looked a bit uneasy at first, as though she didn't know what to do with it. But now I catch her from time to time, walking through the house journal held closely to her chest, and pencil moving a mile a minute! Im glad that gene passed on to her because what many people fail to realize is writing is a great form of therapy. Just as you would get a full body massage as therapy for stress, writing provides an outlet for mental stresses. So this is what I consider my "mental massage".
At the age of 19 years old, I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. I was immediately put on Zoloft and was told to start therapy. I 'pooh pooh'd" this for many years but recently realized that it was the best thing for me between appointments with my regular therapist. I am a single mother with two daughters and I work full time so needless to say my life can be very stressful. Added to that the fact that I take several different medications throughout the day it sometimes makes it difficult to cope. I have a strong family structure and am blessed to have several people for support but let's face it: the majority of my family's day to day living falls on me. So I've decided to go back to writing. I feel like if I can take a moment every day or two to 'decompress' in words it will make things a lot smoother for me an those around me. No one really knows Im doing this and as stated before, my goal is not to become famous from this, but mainly to express my own personal feelings, emotions and opinions and if in the process, I help someone else feel better then yay! So that's it. That's the story of The Mental Massage. You'll be hearing from me again soon.
