It's June-the END of June- already!!!! My oh my where has the year gone??? Yesterday was my sister and her husband's 17th anniversary. Now THAT's love.... and that's what I'm looking for. Will I find it? I have to believe that I will.
So much has happened. I had my partial hysterectomy.... no more pain! My daughter finished her first year of high school and my youngest is on her way to middle school. And yet I'm still 19! lol...Its been a pretty cool summer so far. The dog is still nuts, and so are the kids but hey, they got all my GOOD genes what can I say.
I also deleted my Facebook account only to not only reactive IT but also my twitter.... its just so hard to stay away from social networking. Its the way we communicate nowadays... I won't get all political on what it's doing to our children or how it contributes to bullying, loss of brain cells and gaining of weight I'll just say when something gets so big....after a while you just have to roll with it. You can't avoid it. Anyway, it's a rare occasion where the kids are out of the house and I'm alone so I refuse to spend all of my time in front of the computer...I'm determined to spend MOST of my time in front of the T.V.! Peace and blessings...
Sunday, June 26, 2011
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
Spring has sprung!!!
Its April now, and although the first official day of Spring was in March, I think it's finally hitting me that in a few weeks (at least in Michigan) we will be able to pack away the boots, scarves and hats for a while. Spring always makes me think of new beginnings. Like Mondays.... a fresh start. And while most people look forward to spring cleaning their homes, closets, garages, etc.... I look forward to spring cleaning my life. I usually move, which those who know me know that I love to move.... I change my phone number (to lose those people I should have never found in the first place) I purge clothing, furniture, hairdos, pounds, electronics, cars, etc.... I let go of all the encumberances that have given me grief and stress in the last year. I know that to some my way of life is a bit strange, but I guess if you remember back long enough, I've been living simply since I left home. It doesn't take much to make me happy (except shoes), and nothing I own has any significant sentimental or monetary value so it's easy for me to leave it all behind.
I plan on doing just that at the end of April. Im moving again. Im not taking much with me as nothing much that I own do I even WANT anymore. Just the basics-and the shoes!- will suffice. I'm excited about this move because for the first time in 15 years am I getting everything I've ever really wanted in a home. And although it's more expensive than any other place I've ever lived, it's worth it to have it all...including both of my children...living there with me.
I've also taken in a couple more stray dogs. One four legged, one two legged. I must say I like the four legged one better but that's a whole other topic. Either way, Im sure I'll be rewarded for my generosity. And to anyone who reads this: It's not too much for me to handle. Idle time gives me an opportunity to dwell on all that's WRONG with my life. The work I put in taking care of the animals, kids, and men who act like kids keeps my mind so occupied that I don't have to dwell on the fact that I feel completely unequipped for life.
I am feeling much more positive these days, despite how the world views me. I like myself much more as I get older.... this old skin of mine is becoming more familiar and more comfortable by the moment. True, I have the 'mean reds' a little more than usual.... but there hasn't been one episode I couldn't come out of. And for that I thank Jehovah God... and my therapist equally! Until next time, I urge all of you to pick up a bouquet of Gerber Daisies, and slowly sniff each and every one. It'll make you feel absolutely fabulous!
b.
I plan on doing just that at the end of April. Im moving again. Im not taking much with me as nothing much that I own do I even WANT anymore. Just the basics-and the shoes!- will suffice. I'm excited about this move because for the first time in 15 years am I getting everything I've ever really wanted in a home. And although it's more expensive than any other place I've ever lived, it's worth it to have it all...including both of my children...living there with me.
I've also taken in a couple more stray dogs. One four legged, one two legged. I must say I like the four legged one better but that's a whole other topic. Either way, Im sure I'll be rewarded for my generosity. And to anyone who reads this: It's not too much for me to handle. Idle time gives me an opportunity to dwell on all that's WRONG with my life. The work I put in taking care of the animals, kids, and men who act like kids keeps my mind so occupied that I don't have to dwell on the fact that I feel completely unequipped for life.
I am feeling much more positive these days, despite how the world views me. I like myself much more as I get older.... this old skin of mine is becoming more familiar and more comfortable by the moment. True, I have the 'mean reds' a little more than usual.... but there hasn't been one episode I couldn't come out of. And for that I thank Jehovah God... and my therapist equally! Until next time, I urge all of you to pick up a bouquet of Gerber Daisies, and slowly sniff each and every one. It'll make you feel absolutely fabulous!
b.
Friday, March 4, 2011
Im still here...
It has been a moment since I've posted anything... but I felt the need to come here today and vent a bit. Its been a hectic few months. The end of the year happenings, vacations, flu...etc... but Im doing well as is my family. I had a mini breakdown a few weeks ago dealing with some personal issues, but I am happy to report all was handled and I am on the mend.
Several of my friends have recently ventured out into business for themselves and it has started me thinking of whether maybe I should try my own hand an entrepeneurship. Im not incredibly talented at anything in particular so I was surfing the web to see what is recommended for people without a lot of creativity and more importantly, TIME to devote to extra curricular activites and I stumbled upon candle making. There are several sites that have starter kits for beginners either has hobbies or for resale. So I sent off for my very first kit and I will keep you all updated about what happens if anything with that.
Im also back on Facebook. And twitter. I tried staying away but the need to connect socially was too strong. I just have to accept that I am not an introverted person. There are so many thoughts in my head and sometimes I have to express them or I'll burst!
Its Friday, and it's cold and rainy here. Im listening to Drake. He soothes my soul in a way no one else can. Sometimes I listen to his lyrics and I think he's talking FOR me. Not TO me...but FOR me. He says the things I wish I could. And he's male so he can get away with it. When women do it, we're considered stalkers. lol...
It's been 5 months since I started this blog and no one has read one word... so now I know that I can pretty much type whatever I want and I don't have to be embarrassed or worried about someone reading it and blasting me all over the internet. Anywho... Im off to work now. Time to make the donuts...
b
Several of my friends have recently ventured out into business for themselves and it has started me thinking of whether maybe I should try my own hand an entrepeneurship. Im not incredibly talented at anything in particular so I was surfing the web to see what is recommended for people without a lot of creativity and more importantly, TIME to devote to extra curricular activites and I stumbled upon candle making. There are several sites that have starter kits for beginners either has hobbies or for resale. So I sent off for my very first kit and I will keep you all updated about what happens if anything with that.
Im also back on Facebook. And twitter. I tried staying away but the need to connect socially was too strong. I just have to accept that I am not an introverted person. There are so many thoughts in my head and sometimes I have to express them or I'll burst!
Its Friday, and it's cold and rainy here. Im listening to Drake. He soothes my soul in a way no one else can. Sometimes I listen to his lyrics and I think he's talking FOR me. Not TO me...but FOR me. He says the things I wish I could. And he's male so he can get away with it. When women do it, we're considered stalkers. lol...
It's been 5 months since I started this blog and no one has read one word... so now I know that I can pretty much type whatever I want and I don't have to be embarrassed or worried about someone reading it and blasting me all over the internet. Anywho... Im off to work now. Time to make the donuts...
b
Friday, October 29, 2010
The Mental Massage
Im not sure how 'famous' this blog will become. Im not even sure Im interested in fame. What I do know is this: It's a form of therapy that I've been using since the age of 5. Not blogging exactly, but writing in general. In my mother's attic she has boxes and boxes of my sisters' and my journals. We wrote down everything from the time we figured out how to form sentences. And recently I bought my own daughter her first journal. She looked a bit uneasy at first, as though she didn't know what to do with it. But now I catch her from time to time, walking through the house journal held closely to her chest, and pencil moving a mile a minute! Im glad that gene passed on to her because what many people fail to realize is writing is a great form of therapy. Just as you would get a full body massage as therapy for stress, writing provides an outlet for mental stresses. So this is what I consider my "mental massage".
At the age of 19 years old, I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. I was immediately put on Zoloft and was told to start therapy. I 'pooh pooh'd" this for many years but recently realized that it was the best thing for me between appointments with my regular therapist. I am a single mother with two daughters and I work full time so needless to say my life can be very stressful. Added to that the fact that I take several different medications throughout the day it sometimes makes it difficult to cope. I have a strong family structure and am blessed to have several people for support but let's face it: the majority of my family's day to day living falls on me. So I've decided to go back to writing. I feel like if I can take a moment every day or two to 'decompress' in words it will make things a lot smoother for me an those around me. No one really knows Im doing this and as stated before, my goal is not to become famous from this, but mainly to express my own personal feelings, emotions and opinions and if in the process, I help someone else feel better then yay! So that's it. That's the story of The Mental Massage. You'll be hearing from me again soon.
At the age of 19 years old, I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. I was immediately put on Zoloft and was told to start therapy. I 'pooh pooh'd" this for many years but recently realized that it was the best thing for me between appointments with my regular therapist. I am a single mother with two daughters and I work full time so needless to say my life can be very stressful. Added to that the fact that I take several different medications throughout the day it sometimes makes it difficult to cope. I have a strong family structure and am blessed to have several people for support but let's face it: the majority of my family's day to day living falls on me. So I've decided to go back to writing. I feel like if I can take a moment every day or two to 'decompress' in words it will make things a lot smoother for me an those around me. No one really knows Im doing this and as stated before, my goal is not to become famous from this, but mainly to express my own personal feelings, emotions and opinions and if in the process, I help someone else feel better then yay! So that's it. That's the story of The Mental Massage. You'll be hearing from me again soon.
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